I'm tired.

I am so tired. I am fed up. I have been here before, but now, this time it is more serious. I am tired of people not taking me serious. I am tired of proving myself. I am tired of not looking out for my family- me and Leah. I am tired of men. I am tired of the dishonesty. I am tired of my other family. I am tired of being judged EVERY SINGLE DAY! I am tired of hating myself.

I am about to go into hibernating for a long time. I am fed up with everyone. The good thing about being tired is that it pushes me to change the dynamics of my life. I get motivated to do what I need to. Instead of wallowing, I am going to do something about it and it WILL make me stronger! I will bounce back. For the people, who don't have anything good to say to me, shut your mouth. For people who can't stand me and don't like the way I run my life, kick rocks! You officially mean nothing to me, I am done with you. My new dynamic is about me and Leah. She is all that matters to me and everyone else does not mattter; we are going to be selfish for a bit and do what we need to do. If anyone messes with my dynamic, then there will be hell to pay!

All the men, who either don't have dangling balls or can't be men, I truly don't need you or want you; for the other men, who may be dishonest with whoever, everything comes out! For family, Leah is my family and I want nothing to do with any of you, at all! You  still doubt me and no one supports me, so goodbye, I am taking a leave of absence from you.

I am proud at how far I have come! I love being a mom more than anything and I am glad that the opportunity presents itself that I get to be a full time single mom. Now it is time to focus just on that and nothing else, no men, no drama, no friends, no family. Just me and mine! Whatever I need to do to be STRONG, I will.