I don't know what going on with me. I just feel as though I don't know who I am anymore. I have spent so much time trying to be like everyone else, trying to change me in order to be something that I feel is better than me; its the weirdest thing that I am even admitting it. Honestly, I don't feel as though I know what I want anymore. I havent really had a chance to find me, because I have been so thrown into being a full time mom, which I absolutely love, but thats all I am. I am not motivated about anything at this point and it is almost like I am content with being stagnant. It is just a weird place for me right now. I just want to know how to find my identity anymore. Now that I am a teacher, it is so different from being in an office all day, because I don't put the same effort in myself anymore, because it is almost like I don't have to. My birthday will be here in less than a month and I want to overcome all of the feelings that I am having right now.
I just want to get back to being confident and gorgeous, I want to be truly happy, I want to find myself and who I am, but also I want to continue balancing my full time mom job, I want to be a good, creative teacher, and I really just want to be real and honest about everything and life. Maybe I need to change something or maybe I need to make some bigs steps. I hope something changes soon and I will keep you updated.
