Identity Crisis.

I don't know what going on with me. I just feel as though I don't know who I am anymore. I have spent so much time trying to be like everyone else, trying to change me in order to be something that I feel is better than me; its the weirdest thing that I am even admitting it. Honestly, I don't feel as though I know what I want anymore. I havent really had a chance to find me, because I have been so thrown into being a full time mom, which I absolutely love, but thats all I am. I am not motivated about anything at this point and it is almost like I am content with being stagnant. It is just a weird place for me right now. I just want to know how to find my identity anymore. Now that I am a teacher, it is so different from being in an office all day, because I don't put the same effort in myself anymore, because it is almost like I don't have to. My birthday will be here in less than a month and I want to overcome all of the feelings that I am having right now.

I just want to get back to being confident and gorgeous, I want to be truly happy, I want to find myself and who I am, but also I want to continue balancing my full time mom job, I want to be a good, creative teacher, and I really just want to be real and honest about everything and life. Maybe I need to change something or maybe I need to make some bigs steps. I hope something changes soon and I will keep you updated.

Ultimate cuteness!

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Blah day.

It is so ugly today, its ridiculous, so I am just going to throw out some ramblings:

• I have on metallic purple on my nails, just to try something different and be a little creative at work:)
• I am starting a new book today, but Mary Morrison and I am hoping its good; the last book I read had an awful ending.
• Which means, I am def hitting the library tomorrow for some new reads.
• But I have discovered that there are some hundreds of books that I have that I havent read, so that might be fun.
• I am thinking about making a cheesecake this weekend, from Better Homes and Gardens.
• I am going o try to work on spray painting my lamps yellow this week, just to give my bedroom some spice before the holidays. If it will stop raining for a minute.
• I need some creative ideas for my class this week, I want to always have something to do.
• But I love my babies and I love being creative.
• Next on the list, yellow nail polish, just because...
• Please try Starbucks VIA...awesome!!!!
• I'm gonna watch SATC 2 tonight
• And I am mourning the loss of my bestie in 2 weeks as she moves to MS...ugh

Weekend Plans!

Relaxing. Sex and the City 2. Church. Pumpkin Patch. Dinner date with my sis at Brio (fancy!). Sleep. Trick or treating. Breakfast. Book reading. Library movies.

Now I am truly excited. Sounds fun, now I have to try to get everything in:)

So damn chic, it's ridiculous!

Its beginning to be fall and I am beginning to crave amazing style! I heart anything remotely simple and chic and this outfit is all of that, freaking amazing. I have some inspiration.

Happy Birthday Leah!

Yesterday was Leah's Birthday and it was amazing! I surprised her with cupcakes for breakfast and waffles and it was an exciting day for her. Every year gets better and better. I can't believe 8 years has gone by already; its insane and it just lets me know I am getting much older than I thought, but thats a good thing. But I am so grateful for my child and she really saved my life and I am so glad to have the opportunity to call her mine. Leah, I love you more than you know and I know that sometimes things are hard between us, but I love you in the midst of it. You are an amazing child and I am truly grateful. Know that I love you and God loves you.

Love,
Mommy

I heart these tattoos...

How cute are these? I heart them so much!