We need to have a talk!

Hi loves,
I once again have gone MIA, but there of course is always good reason. Honestly, I have not even been in the mood to even write on this blog. My life has been crazy haywire, and most of it has been work, which has been more than I have expected I would be doing. I never expected that I would start being stressed out about work, but there have been dealines, computer glitches, and attitudes from everyone (including me), but it is starting to slow down and I appreciate this slow time, because now I can start dedicating my time to some of the things I wanna do.

I know you are wondering why the big pic of the amazing doughnuts, but look very hard, because this will be diminished from my diet. Me and Food have a sick relationship and I beginning to get sick of it. I don't know when it started getting so bad, but now because of this relationship, it is decision time to decide what I wanna do. I literally stuff my face with anything, eating all day, every day, without thinking. I am tired of being unhappy and at this point, I am. I am unhappy with what I have to physically look at everyday and I know that I can do better. I have been making so many excuses, so I wouldnt have to put in any work, but that made it worse.

So now, its time for change. So I have begun to figure out what I need to do to get myself back to where I need to be. So first things first, I am going to start on my working out. I have decided that that will be top priority in my life. I am going to workout at least 5 days a week, whether it be 3 days at the gym and two doing yoga, or 5 days at the gym, or even 4 days gym and 1 doing yoga. There needs to be a consistent workout and I have to bring myself back to doing that. NO MORE EXCUSES! This week has gotten so much better, because I went to the gym 3 days this week and I plan on working out this weekend. I know my goals and I will reach them, and just like with school, I am not giving up.

As far as the food goes, I am still deciding if I want to do weight watchers or not. I looked at it last night and it looks promising, but I think if I do it, I will have to go to the meetings. I will know by Monday what I am going to do, but with food, the bottom line is all about PORTION control and I seem to not know how to do that. But if I decide not to do Weight Watchers, I am going to count calories, which I am good at doing, work on my portions, eliminate different things out of my diet (caffeine, alcohol, meat, etc.), and drink lots and lots of water.

I am ready. This relationship is gotta go and so food, I am breaking up with you. No more taking over my life and making me feel bad, no more lying to me, and bringing out the worst in me. We are done and I am READY FOR CHANGE!!!!